To say today hasn't been a very rough day would be like claiming the pope isn't Catholic. He is, and today, in essence, sucked bigtime. I have almost broken down crying at least three times (make that four) and it was a struggle to keep my mind on work and just keep going. If anyone tells me to just suck it up and be a man, I'll tell them to go fuck themselves. You don't want this burden. You do not want to go through what I am going through right now. Today, I am truly learning what Christ meant when he said, "Pick up your cross and follow me." I'll tell you all what it is later, but right now, what I really need is prayers. Prayers for my family, prayers for my sister, and prayers for me. Ultimately, that will do more good.